Sharing me

Sharing Me

There is a video of me in glorious anticipation of climax, opening my legs with a camera significantly poised to capture the moment when I emit my fuck juices.
There’s nothing strange about that really, especially as it is a piece of film that only two people have seen; the model and the photographer.

When I was posing for this video shot, there was slight trepidation in that I was a little concerned that I might be struck with stage fright. I know that I can cum and gush forth some serious amounts of fluid but when it was almost demanded for posterity sake, then given the incorrect circumstances, it could backfire and nothing would happen.

Of course, this didn’t happen. I did gush and in a pretty incredible but not unusual way. And the reason that I could cum in such watery quantity was down to the relationship and the relaxed state of being with the photographer, my lover. I didn’t feel that there was any demand on my performance. The filming was very much part of the arousal, and anyone who has not filmed themselves during sex should damn well get on and do it.
If you happen to find yourselves aroused by watching two or more people revelling in the human bliss of their sexuality, for it is this more than the aesthetics of beautiful bodies that turns me on, then you really must work with your partner on getting yourselves on film.

I never thought that I would actually enjoy being filmed. As I have mentioned before, many years ago I was asked to do some topless modelling, but never in my wildest dreams did I consider that I would have the gall to have my pussy photographed.
Of course, there was also a time when I really couldn’t see how anyone would want to photograph this monstrous hole, full of all collection of innards that I had no desire to see or touch for myself, let alone consider it to be horny for anyone else.
Yet gradually, with absolutely no demands or expectations from another person, I could see its value. I think it helped that I took photographs of myself, and this is a factor that hasn’t really been explored.

Once more, I have spoken before about it being quite a turn on to photograph yourself to see how your body works, what it looks like and therefore how arousing it could be for another but I haven’t seen it as part of a preparation for a filming session with a partner or lover or indeed on a professional basis.

And I really want women to feel comfortable and I really want women to feel the fascination and the joy and the liberty of being filmed, whether it be still shots or moving images.

When I set my sideline company up, I will have to explore this further.
I had, somewhat in jest, suggested that I set up a company that photographs women and their cunts so that they can see the natural beauty of a swollen pussy. The women would probably have to play with themselves so that I could get them to see a before and after shot, and I’d really want them to see the mass of pink beauty that they are capable of thrusting forward to the opening of their cunts. I’d like them to see the amazing creation that can be seen once they part their labia and delve inside.
This in itself is a worthwhile cause. Women do not know their own bodies, I am sure of that and this would be one way of realising that what they feel when they make tentative moves to pushing their fingers inside them is not weird or unusual. It is what women are like and it is what heterosexual men adore when they plunge a gloriously erect cock inside, feeling those immense amount of silky folds wrapping all around their hard one.

However, in consideration of what I said earlier, I also think I should be showing women how to photograph themselves. I can demonstrate to them, and explain precisely what I have done with photos that I have taken of myself. We could collectively discuss ways of turning our men on through photographing our aroused pussies, and I would actively encourage this as a way of enabling them to feel comfortable and aroused when they choose to be photographed by their partners.

I’ll never forget the first time I photographed my pussy. I was really turned on for a variety of reasons. First and foremost, I was planning to share these photos with my lover. I knew that he would be excited by the prospect of seeing my cunt on film but that wasn’t the real issue. He can have a look at the real thing whenever he wants to. He can slide his fingers, cock or tongue in whenever he feels he would like to.
The real issue was that he would be aroused knowing that I was doing this, knowing that I had developed so far in my sexual awareness that I could be turned on purely by knowing that he was going to receive a photo of something he was already familiar with!
The excitement and the arousal was in the ‘doing’ even though one of us wasn’t present.

I was also turned on by taking a photograph of my pussy because it was only then that I could really see what was so fascinating for my lover as he lay between my legs, moved my labia apart and watched in awe as my erection turned and twisted the lively mounds of skin around.
I could, for the first time, see what he saw, and that excited me.
I was excited by my own sexuality, and if that sounds peculiar then think again. In order to be fully sexual, in order to make the most of the very best thing in life, I do think you have to be comfortable and aware of yourself as a sexual being. Looking at yourself is part of that. Men have the opportunity to see and handle their bits in the course of every day life. Women don’t.

Returning to the video of my and my cummy cunt.
It is the most fascinating video, and though I say it myself, far more fascinating than some of the videos you see on the porn sites. There is nothing wrong or weird about being turned on watching yourself in an aroused state. If you watch porn on a semi regular basis, then in many ways, it is actually better to watch your own arousal because you can absolutely remember that moment when you are so horny that you can hardly breathe.

The video is so carefully taken that there is a close up right inside my pussy. You can see the openings and the layers of deeply coloured skin that has clearly been ready and gagging for a fingering. My lover’s fingers manipulate my organs and then retract to see the effect of his wonderful touches, and then, there are clear, dark holes that appear and open, emitting that beautiful fluid and very clearly coming from some secretive and special places that are definitely not the pee hole.
As a scientific study it is fascinating. As a piece of erotica, it is beautiful. As a porn film, it is horny.

I wish I could see this clip now. I would live to remind myself of both the moment of filming and the incredibly intimate moment of viewing it for the first time. The awe and fascination on both of our faces was divine.

At some point, these amateur sex movies are posted onto sites around the world to share with other people. Some of these people are clearly exhibitionists, possibly hoping for a break into the allegedly profitable porn business. Others are just exhibitionists who simply like sharing their sexuality. I sincerely hope, though I am not naïve enough to think this is the case, that all those who I view have given consent to their presence on porn sites. I really would hate to be watching someone who simply squirms at the thought of their sexuality on display.
So, I have to ask the question. Am I comfortable with the thought of my cunt been shown on the internet for the whole world to see?

Yesterday, I was in horny mood having read some papers and had some thoughts. So I visited youporn and got off on some sites of women squirting their juices. It really did turn me on to see their excitement of one another and also the quantity of cum that they were emitting.
I noticed that these clips had been seen by millions, and that prior to my visit, there had already been over 2500 hits on that one clip on that day.
That’s a lot of people surreptitiously watching porn, methinks!

The clip of my cunt does not show my face. The sound could easily be muted to drown out my moans of ecstasy and even if they could be heard, you couldn’t identify it as me, so in many ways, I should actually be fine about it, especially as it could be used to dispel the myth that the only thing women emit during sex is piss.
But I am not sure I am ready for that.

Now here is the most bizarre thing. My lover has told a friend of his about this clip – purely in the scientific sense of course. He jokingly asked how I would feel about him sharing this with his friend, and I took him literally. I actually thought he was asking whether I minded.

I wouldn’t want him to share it with anyone, and he wouldn’t do that but in some ways, it bothered me less that he would share it with a friend than if he had asked to put it on a website. That is somewhat bizarre because the friend in question already knows, I assume, that the film is of me, of my cunt. Would he be able to look me in the eye having seen my pussy in action?
Well again, the answer to that rather lies with the person involved. Some people simply would be too embarrassed but with others, people who frequently look at porn, people who certainly seem to be very comfortable with their own sexuality and those of others, it really shouldn’t be a problem.

There is no secret between these two men as far as my sexuality is concerned. There is no secret between these two men that they are both deeply sexual beings who fully acknowledge and sometimes discuss their love of all sexual things, so in many ways, even though it was mentioned in jest, it really doesn’t bother me – if I could get a guarantee that the new voyeur would still treat me in exactly the same way as he would had he not seen my aroused state.
And there is another thing, if I am happy to be watched by this man having sex with my lover, then why should him seeing an erotic, scientific, horny piece of artwork be a problem?

I was thinking about this. People who have had sex with someone can still talk to them and have ‘normal’ relationships. I have quite a few close friends who I have fucked or at least been very sexually intimate with them, and I do not consider this as a problem when we meet so why should a friend of a friend have a problem with knowing that I am sexual?

My lover has also shown me photos of his ex-partners. I suppose that may not be ideal as these people do not know I have seen them in their sexual prime but it is not going to effect or alter the way I feel when I meet them, just because I have seen them naked or semi-naked in photos that were taken to celebrate the specialness of the time and people involved.

I am actually not an exhibitionist. I still find it difficult to believe that my cunt is worthy of public viewing or small private, intimate viewing. Although I have a fantasy about being watched having a glorious fuck with my lover, I am still far too vain to not be worried that I am overweight. I don’t actually want to be seen in the state I am currently in but there is a part of me that really does not have inhibitions about sharing me, sharing this part of me, and maybe that makes me a little odd!

What I definitely do want is the opportunity to partake in more filming. I want every single aspect of my sexuality and every aspect of our joint sexuality captured in film for eternity, or as long as people want it. I want every new sexual act to be filmed as well as the basic love making that we enjoy. (I don’t actually think our love making is in any way ‘basic’). I want to see his face as he puts his whole hand in my cunt. I want to see him putting it in there and I want to see the instant reaction of my pussy when he moves it out. I want to see him fucking me in all different positions, and I want to be filmed splashing my cum on every part of his body.
I want to film him jerking off with his fingers in my cunt whilst he does it.
I want to film him sticking his cock in my mouth whilst I squeeze his balls as tight as I dare.

The joy of sex is in the act and the togetherness. Photography and filming merely enhances and savours those moments.

As for sharing, well – let’s just say, I’m not ruling it out.